As you may have noticed I took a year hiatus from blogging. I’ve been away for many reasons.
My new role at work has me, at times, questioning if I’ll even make it through the day. I’m filling multiple roles, none of which are similar to one another, and cleaning up after people who seem to come and go like the tides. All of which while the job I was hired to do is scrutinized and questioned why stuff isn’t getting done. It seems like that is just the way it is now a days. Hired for one job but expected to do 5 or 6. I imagine many of you are in the same boat as me with on this one.
In addition to that being a single-income family is challenging. It’s the best thing for us to do because of daycare costs and after-school babysitter costs about the same as a full time salary. However, it still puts a ton of pressure on me as a provider to do what is my responsibility and make sure I keep that income coming in. If not we are in an impossible situation that we can’t afford especially with three kids.
Add to that the highs and lows of my depression and you can imagine I’ve been in a dark space. I honestly don’t think I’ve even been in any mental capacity to write about parenting. Not when I feel like I’m falling apart at every turn. October through end of December of 2021 and into early January 2022 was the worst. I can‘t remember feeling this bad in a very long time.
I’ve been contemplating if I am going to stop blogging for good. I‘ve felt like the low reader count, felling like a parenting failure, and the fact that I have zero time to do any writing I’m just wasting my time and money.
The reality is I’ve been doing a piss poor job at time management. I’ve been so stressed and depressed that I want to hide and lose myself in a binge worthy show or video game.
On a more positive change in our life, Aaliyah finished kindergarten and is almost through 1st grade. We enrolled her in summer classes and art classes to help keep her growing and not lose the progress she’s work so hard to get to and it worked great. We had a little trouble after any breaks like Christmas break but who doesn’t. Hell I had 12 days off and hated going back to the office.
We also signed her up for acting classes. In hopes it’ll help her open up and be more social. Currently, she is a lot like me, Quite.
Dominic is in those terrible threes and potty training but really growing into a personality all his own at the same time.
Jasmine is one very unique little girl. She’s a lot like me in that her face tells you exactly what is on her mind and her scowl is exactly like mine. She actually broke her arm over Christmas break and and just got her cast removed. Kids are amazingly resilient to setbacks. She adapted within days to using just one arm.
Lastly, my wife and I have decided now is the time to finally start our design business. We’ll be creating and selling products, furniture, and home decor, as well as our graphic design skills.
It’s not going to be the easiest within an apartment but we are utilizing the balcony for all the tools and the workbench which seems to be taking up the most space. We’ve already made and sold one live edge table and I’m in the process of making 3 more. So I guess we are doing something right. I’ll have to balance my time better between family, my job, my business, and my blog but I think this new endeavor will be just the push I need. I also have to make sure I am finding some time to myself and taking the breaks I’ve been avoiding because without that I’ll be right back to where I’ve been.
So, hopefully over the next few months, you’ll see a ton more from me. Some posts will be parenting tips, some about me and the business, and some on how the kids are learning along with us. All very exciting and I’m looking forward to sharing everything I can. So drop a comment, tell me what you hope to see, questions you have, or just to say ”hi”. Also, look for more of me on Instagram as I’ll be starting to post more often, dropping parenting tips, and showcasing some of my new projects. Until next time, hold your family close and enjoy the now!
